I was already going to write a quick post on this, and then I saw this quote from a church I follow on Facebook:
“We think that fearing failure will help us avoid failure, but fear of failure doesn’t prevent us from failing; it robs us of the joy of living.”
I have spent pretty much all of my life not really being me. So much so that I didn’t know who I was. I spent a lot of time trying to figure others out and learn what I could do to make them like me. So there wasn’t any time for just being me…whatever that was.
All of my life, I have tried to fit in, make people like me, look smart, look like I have my act together…the list goes on! I’m a people pleaser, and I’ve tried so hard trying to make others happy that I didn’t have a fat clue who I really was. It’s taken going through lots of really hard things to wake me up. But you know what finally woke me up in the end? I realized how much I am loved and accepted by God.
That did it!
God is stinkin’ in love with me. And that takes the pressure off! He’s the only one that I really want to impress, and He already thinks I’m perfect just the way He made me!
And you know what I want to do now? I want to have a whole heck of a lot of fun. I want to live! I’ve robbed myself of a lot of fun, connections with people, etc. because I’ve been so worried about everything! But now that I feel free to be me, I feel like I’m constantly looking for fun.
Who can I talk to? What can I create? What can I do? Where can I go? What can I do to make things fun for others? How do I find fun in every situation?
I haven’t had as much fun as I should have been having up to now because I couldn’t get past myself.
The fun is in moving past yourself and moving deeper into the lives of those around us.
And that’s what I plan to do!